Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

What's Your Element?

Suicidal

mine

My eyes are closed but I’m awake
My heart is breaking but I’m not crying
I have you yet you are not mine
I see you but you’re not really here
I am alive, yet I wish not to be
There’s no point to my existence
Our love was special but wasn’t right
Our lives connected yet we’re apart
I am alive but see no point
1...2...3...4...25...32...40...
40 pills will make it easy
40 pills, it will be over
1…2...3…4…25…32…40
40 pills down the drain
I’m depressed but not crazy
I want you back but not your pity
My eyes are closed but my mind is finally open
I am strong and I’ll keep going
With or without you

tired

1. Just got back from Houston
2. Will write about it sometime this week (I hope)
*Before I forget all the details*
3. For now, I'm beat and going straight to bed.
4. Will bloghop tomorrow.......

writing again

Winter Love
mine

somewhere along the ice laden highway
she tried to slowly stand
picking up the pieces of a broken vow
eyes travelled to what she holds
what used to be part of a whole
never giving up, hope at heart
piece by piece, she started to strand
too bad her efforts were all in vain
it just can not be done
the sun slowly took over the moonlight
and ice started to melt
one by one, the pieces started to drop
she inhaled the promise of a new day
and then walked away

Your Power Color Is Blue Relationships and feelngs are the most important things to you.You are empathetic and accepting - and good at avoiding conflict.If someone close to you is in pain, it makes you hurt as well.You try to heal the ones you love with your kind and open heart. What's Your Power Color? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

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A million and one themes

.....these are just a few of my future blog themes, will update periodically......
1. ex's and closures (interesting eh?)
2. best friends (old, lost and new)
3. Grad school (a.k.a "what the hell was I thinking?!?")
4. Allan and Irene (my favorite cousins)
5. I never wanted to be a nurse
6. If I were to go under the knife.... (reserve judgement until published)
7. Bob
8. The big TEN (10th year wedding anniversary)
9. How not to be popular
10. From Miss Popular to anonymous
11. I should have taken that modelling job
12. Trial photos (from my first shoot!)
13. Friendster (a.k.a. how I stay late night after night after night browsing to find long lost friends)
15. Blogger (a.k.a how I stay late night after night after night learning something about complete strangers
16. Meet the witches
17. I left my heart in San Francisco

If u have any sugestions, feel free to post comments........

my new Baby!!!!! 

rambling

my lips are getting numb from eating too much black licorice vines. My roommate's asleep and I think I'm supposed to wake her up....sometime. the show WINGS (Nick-at-Nite) has just started, letting me know it's already 3AM, without really looking at my watch. I have contemplated on starting my 3rd paper due 2 weeks from now, but I'm still not up to it. I hear my roommate's alarm go off, I think she hit the snooze button.

last vine......I better buy another pack later.

I have been reading other people's blog entries....Funny, scary, kinky, sympathetic, wanting sympathy, senseless, ads I'm not interested in, languages I don't understand. I just realized that French is not really romantic if you can't pronounce the words.

I have thought of a million and 1 topics I should write about. Too much. Its hard to decide. So for now, please excuse my ramblings.

I should learn HTML. I can't find a template that I really like. So I figured I should just make one. There's only one problem, the only thing I know about HTML is, well, those 4 letters.

Maybe someone who has a good heart (and knowledgeable) will read this and be kind enough to make one for me. I want powder blue, with one large fairy and a few small ones, a link(s) portion, a tagboard. Hmm....let's see what else. I'd like to hear Mandy Moore's Mona Lisas and Mad Hatters as well. What are the odds that I'm going to wait for eternity???? Oh well......

My roommate's alarm is going off again.......snooze button again........no more vines......

Shoot, shoot, shoot

I always believed I have a talent in photography. I've been obsessed with it since my high school days. I would see subjects and I would create the picture in my mind of how I would shoot, and how masterful the photos will come out. Only problem was, I never had a camera in high school. But I still kept the passion, for I knew that one day, I will own one, and I will be able to translate what's on my mind, into beautifully taken prints. I've had little success with instamatics (of course!). I couldn't afford a real deal SLR, so I tried to do my craft on instamatics. How frustrating!

I still remember when my best friend Gelai and I were at the port one of those days I was bored to death and decided I will try fishing.......the scene was just magical then, blue sea, blue sky, the mountains as my backdrop, and of course, my model Gelai. If only I have a camera!!!! So I promised my best friend that when I finally get my dream cam, we'll shoot like hell!!!! That was 16 years ago.

Well guess what.....yesterday, I went on my first shoot (well, more like trying it out) using my new Nikon N70. I know what you're thinking, an SLR in the times of digital? I have always been fascinated with an SLR, because you get what you put in, no editing, no discarding, no second chances. It's more challenging for me not to be able to see what I'm getting. And more exciting when I finally open that envelope, seeing my prints for the first time. That's just me, and my flair for the dramatics.

I have yet to see my prints actually, and my mentor has yet to judge what I already know as far as using my camera functions go. Then we'll start the lessons!!!! Yay!!!!

I used to think that I can do nursing here in the US for about 10 years, then I can move on to becoming a fashion photographer....... two years down.

10 Things I Want You to Know About me

10. I love Vines black licorice flavor....although none of my friends would dare taste it.

9. I want to lose weight, I swear, I'm trying......

8. I hate stupid comments and people pretending to know things when they actually don't!

7. I love to shop, but I'm a true-blue "kuripot", so I go to DV (read-divisoria), Ross and Burlington, Walmart and Target.

6. I love to read....so if you're having a hard time thinking of something to give me, think books!!!!!

5. I am a frustrated artist, I want to design clothes kasi but I am the worst when it comes to drawing. But then again, I love to write. I guess I can't ask for everything.

4. I can be a very good friend, or a real bitch!

3. I'm a shy person.

2. I'll do anything for my family.

1. I love my baby!!!!

a face my dad will never see 

Purpose Driven Life

The Purpose Driven Life-such a fad. It was given to me as a gift Christmas of 2003, but never thought of reading it until yesterday. Last year, I did not sleep until I finished the Da Vinci Code, ditto with Angels and Demons. I also finished Deception Point on my way to Sacramento. And bought 2 new books there, when we went to Costco. I have bought and read several more books since then. But the Purpose Driven Life kept sitting on my bookcase.

Then one day, no provocation, not even a sudden surge of inspiration.......I picked it up and started reading...and realized what I have missed for more than a year. Don't get me wrong, I did not just have an overwhelming transformation or something like that...it just helps me think. I still have no idea what my purpose is. But I'm optimistic. I don't expect my life to do a 180, but we'll see.

Thanks to Dawn

Dawn- "Instead of saying I'm sad, I write, my heart is overcome with grief."

Dawn made me realize that I have abandoned my passion for writing for a long time. Too long, in fact, that I'm afraid I may have already lost my flair. And so here I am, writing again, in the hope that eventually, I will be able to regain that flair....