haircut at Toni and Guy - $ 40.00

peppermint conditioning treatment - $ 15.00

Philosophy make-up optional kit - $ 98.00

pictures to show for it - PrIceLesS

unfortunately, I'm still using a borrowed laptop....so won't be able to show pictures yet *wink*

life after burnout

Pasintabi...tagalog muna at baka masilip ng mga di dapat makasilip....mejo premature pa e.

Yun, nagpulong kmi, lunes ng umaga. Same old, same old. Mejo mas mahaba lang ang pakikinig nya ng reklamo, pero ang suma tutal, tumataginting pa ring "NO" ang sagot nya sa mga hinaing namin. Minsan gusto kong turuan ang effective communication e....mukang nakalimot na.

Anyways.....pagtapos ng pulong, naisipan kong dumaan sa isang Pilipina na parang nanay na namin dito, nasa magandang posisyon na sya, manager ng isang unit, pero mukhang hanggang dun na lang sya. Kahit na anong galing nya, di na sya mabibigyan ng pagkakataong umangat pa, kasi ng pinoy, hindi puti. Yun nga, dinalaw ko sya, bigla ba namang nag print na ng request ng paglipat ko at tinawagan ang manager ng telemetry.....instant na interview. Take note, naka-maong at running shoes ako ha! Pero nangyari na ang nagyari, tanggap na ako. Kinahapunan, bumalik ako para mag-duty. Kinausap pa ako ng amo ko, nag request na mag 16 hours ako sa Sabado dahil walang pwedeng mag-charge sa umaga. Pumayag naman ako dahil di ko na kailangang pumasok ng Biyernes. Ayos, 4 na araw ang bakasyon ko! Saya. Bago ako umuwi kinagabihan, nilagay ko sa box nya ang request ko at di na ko nakatulog magadamag sa kakaisip ng reaksyon nya. Unang makikita nya pagpasok nya ay ang hangarin kong iwan na sya. Naghintay ako ng tawag-wala.

Kanina, ipinasa ko naman ang sulat ko para mas maintindihan nya kung bakit ko naisipang umalis. Sabi ko, professional at hindi personal ang rason ko. Charing! At syempre itinaon ko na wala na sya sa opisina. Mamaya, ako na naman ang sisira sa araw nya! Pero sya naman ang nagsabi, pag iniwan mo ang prutas sa lamesa ng isang linngo, o isang buwan, mawawala ang freshness, tuluyan ng masisira - parang trabaho din. So, me valid reason na ako, di ba?

Sa ngayon, hintay lang muna ako ng sagot ng amo ko. Buti na lang nung evaluation namin, wala naman syang reklamo sakin, maliban sa call in. Aba, karapatan ko naman yatang magkasakit no! Isa pa, tanggap na ko e, Nauna na ang build-up sa akin ni Cris.

Yun lang po muna, salamat sa mga concerned calls, emails and comments...di naman ako nag suicide, nagpahinga lang.

for the first time since the almost two years i've worked here, i cried. i cried because i got overwhelmed, because i'm starting to feel burnt-out, because......just because.

i'm tired! i want to go home!

my view of Tom Cruise's bitching

Tom Cruise has definitey crossed the line. Lambasting Brooke Shields for the courageous path she took, taking things into her own hands and deciding that she will not put her child's life in danger. I call that heroic. His religion is science. His beliefs, however, disagree with science. He is trying to be a moralist, pretending to be someone who cares. But his way of caring is destroying another person. If he really cared, why did he not invite Brooke and talked to her in person instead of going on national tv and telling everyone that what she did was wrong? Just because it wasn't his way, that makes it wrong?

Postpartum depression is very real. To this day, the stigma remains, veiling this reality. The way it did childhood depression a few years back. For these people, suicide becomes the only option. How many lives have we lost just because of shame and bigotry, of ignorance and denial, and plain stupidity? And because of Tom's declarations, we just might as well tell the mothers who are suffering from post-partum depression, that they can just quit because it's all in their minds. They can just go ahead and cease to live because no one should care, because there's no scientific proof of it's authenticity. Well, here's the thing, 12 years ago, science was so sure that brain cells, once destroyed, do not regenerate. But lo and behold, Christopher Reeve showed us it just isn't so. The bain can rewire, and regain lost function.

The discoveries of science can only be as wondrous as our means to discover. It is not absolute. If Tom says there's no proof, I say we just haven't found them yet. Who knows, maybe soon it will be definite- his forefather is indeed the ape.

FYI's:
http://wingofmadness.com/

http://www.nimh.nih.gov/publicat/depression.cfm

http://suicide-awareness.00page.com/

http://www.mommy-muse.com/Help.html

A list of I want to's

3:51 AM
San Antonio Texas
My room
My dish chair


I want to go to Greece and take lots of pictures.

I want to go on a Da Vinci Code tour.

I want to talk to my boss and tell her that I want to crosstrain.

I want to take and ACLS certification class while I'm at it.

I want to sleep and wake up and I've already taken my comprehensive exam and passed it too.

I want to read more books, and wish I don't have to choose betwen Full House reruns and my current summer read.

I want to write agin......like before, when I used to be able to write several chapters before running out of ideas.

I want to write agin, regain that dream of eventually writing a novel.

I want to write again, poems and essays and short stories.

I want to be good at my photography.

I want to go back to reading my Bible, I haven't done so for the longest time.

I want to be with my honey.

I want to see my mom again.

I want to go home.

rantings of a drunken b****h

Ok, before you think I'm an alcoholic, I drank 2, read T-W-O, two bottles of Smirnoff.

Let's backtrack a little....It was Pete's Birthday several days ago. But since we're all going ga-ga over working our asses off for the rainy days,(and since he planned to fly off to the Carribean without informing, let alone invite us anyways), we did not have our days off worked out. So he had to treat us on several different occasions, 1-2 "friends" at a time. Finally, this Sunday was my day, and luckily, V and Joe came as well. So we watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith, which we all totally liked. My, Angelina is sure sexy! After which, we went to a buffalo wing place (which name escapes me at this point, more like I never really cared to know) at a few minutes past 12 midnight. Mind you, the bars here in San Antonio close at 2AM! Geez! I remember in Makati, it'd be 4AM and we're still dancing the "wee hours of the morning" away. And to find any palce other than a bar or club still open on 4th of July Sunday is definitely a sign of good luck (yeah, right, I'm being melodramatic. But amuse me, please!).

Barely half a bottle into my Smirnoff Watermelon, they already announced a last call, of course we ordered another round. Before we know it, they were already taking our bottles away, half-full or empty, it did not matter. Because here, after 1AM, there will be no more drinking! The stores actually stop selling alocoholic beverages by midnight. To make the story short, I managed a few more gulps before finally surrendering my 2nd bottle.

As I've said, I'm not an alcoholic. I can count my drinking days in a year using only the fingers of my right hand, and not even all of them. But the Watermelon really tasted like, well, watemelon..........

So here I am at home, ranting about nothing, wishing I'm in Makati or Malate, listening to Rey Kilay and the gang making fun of a poor soul who's only mistake was wanting to sing in front of an audience unknown to her, or enjoying the soothing and amazing voice of Anton Diva, because I'm not a fan of Regine and would not be interested in watching any of her shows, or simply dancing with my friends and of course my Honey, and sharing an absolute currant with Heydz. Or just letting time fly and catching up while sipping a grande Caramel Machiato with Kai, Irene and Kitch.

Ahhh.....6 more months.......

being political

advisory: the opinion of the author may not be the same as yours. Let's not forget, however, that everyone is entitled. I will not appreciate harsh comments but will welcome opposing opinion, as long as there's no cursing or swearing of any kind.........


Susy as President? Please! I know that Glory did a mighty ******* thing, more so getting caught doing it. But Susy? I should be happy, right? I can just magine the exchange rate being higher than ever, that's always an acceptable consequence. But I am still nationalistic and would want nothing else but for my poor country to be exalted from too many years of turmoil and uncertainty, of politicians bickering back and forth, impatiently changing lanes like a lunatic driver, and so called leaders who keep pulling each other down. My poor country will be left lying on the floor, crippled and in the brink of disintegration. And putting someone who is a totally unpolitical wifey of a passed pseudo-politician is, in my opinion, a grave mistake. And another Cory is far from happening....an illusion is more like it. Let's face it, running a country is not like running a home. How will she know which decisions to make, or who among her (soon-to-be) advisors is leading her to do the right thing? And worst of all, how will she discern, who among her advisors and supporters is setting her up for a grave downfall. Because that's what's going to happen. Like her dear husband Andy, may he rest in peace. The gargoyles are all waiting to use her for their own political agenda and the minute they get what they want, they are going to trample her and leave her for dead. I wish she'd be wiser than that. I wish the public be wise to see the plot brewing here. And she won't be the one left standing. That is a guarantee.

haha! only 14% chance of going to hell (",)

Your Deadly Sins

Wrath: 40%

Lust: 20%

Pride: 20%

Sloth: 20%

Envy: 0%

Gluttony: 0%

Greed: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You will die, after conquering the world as an evil dictator.

How Sinful Are You?

Your Birthdate: October 30

Your birthday on the 30th day of the month shows individual self-expression is necessary for your happiness. You tend to have a good way of expressing yourself with words, certainly in a manner that is clear and understandable. You have a good chance of success in fields requiring skill with words. You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic. You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller. Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue. There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work. You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?